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Feb. 16th, 2008

Who: Ryan and PAIGE
Where: Ryan's place
What: talking
When: last weekend
Prompt: 62. Haunted



Her heart was racing as she approached his bungalow after talking to Tucker. She didn't know what she was going to say. She was relying on the hope that the words would come to her when she needed them. Her heart felt like it was in her stomach as she knocked on the door.

Ryan answered the door, there to pick some things up while he was bouncing back and forth and this that and the other thing. "Huh? Paige?"

"Hey" she said softly.

"hi," he said with a smile, "Uh, sup?"

"Is now a bad time?" she asked, nervously fidgeting.

"Uh, no," he said, "You caught me when I was actually home."

"Yeah I saw you when I was walking by a littler earlier so I knew you were home"

"oh," he said, "Cool!"

She smiled softly still looking at the ground a little "So...I've got something I need to talk to you about"

"Okay," he said, "uh...oh have a seat!"

She felt like she was shaking as she made her way towards the chair. What was she doing? What was she going to say? She sat in the chair and thought a moment, waiting for the words to come to her.

he sat across from her so completely oblvious to everything going on.

She took a deep breath "Well...um the past couple of years have been really hard on me for a few reasons and um, I've been talking to my aunt. She knows a warlock who could put a spell on me to make me forget...."

"What, why would you want to do that? The pain is what helps us to learn and grow and stuff," he said.

"But its just..." she began to choke up a little "It's been really hard, I mean like REALLY hard for me to move on from it. Haven't you noticed what a hermit I've become? That's not me Ry. You know that"

"I know," he said quietly. "I don't know. I changed too ya know. maybe that's just...how it's supposed to be?"

"I...I don't know...maybe it is." She sighed. "I just...I don't know how much longer I can keep living like this. I need to be happy again" tears began to well up.

he sighed deeply, "Well um...I guess if...if you really..." he swallowed. "need to...." he bit his lip, not liking it at all.

She sniffed, trying to choke back her tears. "I....I just don't know what else to do...."

"Then do it," he mumbled. "Go ahead and just forget about me and us and everything that was great. Just...just do it."

Her emotions were getting the best of her know and words just began to flow "You and me were great. It was the greatest thing I've ever known and it's gone. I don't think I'll ever be able to find anything like it again. I'll never be as happy as I was then and there's not a day in my life that'll go by that I won't know it. What kind of way is that to live?"

he sighed, "But what about me?"

"You're happy. Maybe the new me won't run away because of fear and throw away her happiness"

he shook his head, "I won't be happy if I can't...talk to you."

She wiped her eyes "I'll still be here"

"But you won't be...."

She sighed "....I know...."

"So..."

"I just don't know what to do"

"I dont' know what to tell you." he said.

She looked down at the ground "Invent a time machine?"

he sighed.

She sighed "This is me running again isn't it? Just in another form..."

"yeah," he said.

she sighed.

"I dont' know what to tell you."

"I've got a lot to thnk about"

"Yeah," he said softly, "yeah you do."

She looked up at him "No matter what....I want you to know that I love you. I've never stopped"

he bit his lip and nodded, "I knew, i know, I always will."

She bit her lip and nodded "Good"

"yeah," he whispered. "I waited for you...." he sighed, "as long as I could at least."

She nodded and replied softly "I know you did, And im glad youre happy....you deserve it"

"okay," he said quietly.

"I dont want you to ever think that im not glad you found everything you wanted"

"okay," he whispered.

She couldn't control herself anymore, the tears started flowing freely and she hugged him as tightly as she could.

he frowned and whimpered as she did this. it was so hard to be strong.

She tried to regain her compusre and pulled back "I'm sorry...I didnt mean to dump this all on you"

"It's okay."

"I...I should probably go"

"Okay," he mumbled.

"Take care of yourself okay? Be happy. I love you."

"Alright," he stammered.

She gave him another hug and made her way towards the door.

he watched her go, not sure if he wanted her to, but knew she ahd to.